The Journey

      My first post of 2011 is a personal one about my journey.  I have been very busy the past few weeks spending time with my grandchildren to help my daughter with the move from an apartment to their own home.  There were many fits and starts, anxiety, unexpected problems etc, etc that complicated an otherwise exciting time.  We have new neighbors who have adversely affected our quality of life living here.  Security and survival have always been issues for me.  Being on a fixed income is scary.  Social Security does not make it, so we have been going into savings.  Plus, this is the worst time of the year with heat, car insurance, etc, etc.  I found myself getting into a snit, with fear and anxiety prevailing.  Do I take the angel certification class? Do I study shamanism? Do I try to start a practice reading the Akashic Records?  What am I suppose to do? Do I set an intention?  Other people manifest abundance, can I?
      The big difference is I now stop and ask for help from Guidance. I also look at how I have a granddaughter who makes me laugh at every visit.  I am very proud of my grandson, who put out his hand to shake the hand of the father of a young friend and introduced himself, of the little boy who came over to me and said, "Nonna, I am going to give you Reiki" as his little hands heated up and I felt the gift of his love and the gift of Reiki.  Fear and anxiety..Am I crazy? I have such joy and love in my life.  Even the beautiful 10 year old cat who came into our lives last year gives us moments of laughter and much love.
       I decided to ask for help to heal this and opened my Akashic Record.  I heard that I will not often hear many specifics as my lesson is to trust and let things unfold.  I also heard that this current round of anxiety is something I am imposing on myself, that I am obsessing on the "small" decisions for fear that I am not staying on my path.  If I do not do something, I am not necessarily missing an opportunity.  If I am truly suppose to do it, buy it, etc, another opportunity will present itself. "It's all in your highest good because it's all part of the journey.  Some choices are better than others.  The most important decision every moment of every day is to choose peace, love, joy, instead of fear and anxiety, and the rest will take care of itself. That's the only decision you really have to make. It is important to relax into the moment with joy, peace and just be. Put this on the blog."  The woman who taught the Akashic Record workshop wrote in her monthly email that she got sick, as she also got caught up with her own issues and that the illness forced her to stop and just be.
      And so it is.  I am a soul having an incarnate experience with all the foibles of being human.  I choose to continue to evolve, knowing I am surrounded by my "spiritual cheerleaders" who are my guides and I ask God for help and the grace to release my fears.