We attended the July 3rd meeting of the newly formed First Spiritualist Church of RI. My mother asked the reader to tell me she apologizes and I would know what she meant. At first I was puzzled, as I reviewed the mundane happenings of our history. Then a huge wave of energy, a knowing overcame me and I knew what she was saying. It was an esoteric issue and one I cannot "prove" by the measurements our world currently uses as standard. I talked with the reader privately as he felt it inappropriate to share more in a public setting. It all made so much sense to me and I have spent the days since working through the emotions this elicited and healing...healing with accepting her path and acknowledging the impact this had on me. However, now I can let it all go.
The point of this posting is that many of us are not aware of how much we shove down and bury in the emotional garbage pail we tote around. I had handled it all on a cognitive level, that I knew and understood. Looking at the emotional level for the two of us, really looking and feeling it is a different thing entirely. I was able to express stuff I was not aware was there. Though I always had love and compassion for my mother, it is now at a different level, a soul level, with this all incorporated now into all that I am, ever was, and ever will be. Forgiving her with compassion and love is now integrated into her all that that is, ever was, and ever will be.
The affirmation..I love me and all that that is, ever was, and ever will be..continues to unfold its power as new meanings and issues to resolve unfold.
Love, Light, Laughter and Peace.
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